Disappointment and Delight

Disappointment is hanging over me like a cloud today. I did not expect to get accepted into that art show…but I was also really hoping I would. So when the email came in last night and it was a “you have not be chosen” letter it was a slam. It came on the heels of a not chosen email last week for an event I really thought I had a shot at.

Rejection, let’s call those emails what they are…rejections. Rejection cuts like a knife. When we expect it or try to prepare ourselves for it, we think when it comes in I’ll be fine. Then it comes and we are reminded we are not made of stone.  I know that I am not what they are looking for, or that one qualification is not quite met so I should know quickly that they don’t want me…just a few of the thoughts I tell myself to “prepare” for the rejection to come.  Then it comes in and BAM slammed. Because at our core we believe in fairy tales and wishes come true.

Maybe I am alone in this thought. I’m ok with that, but I wanted to let you know in case you are feeling alone in your rejections and “not chosen”ness, that I am right here with you. I spent two years looking for employment that met my needs and my family’s needs. Two years getting form rejection emails or no acknowledgement at all. Two years applying for jobs just to say I was putting in applications. Positions I could have done in my sleep. Yet, still the rejections came. I am working through the damage that was done. Because God loves me too much to leave me damaged. Working through it can be hard too. However, I am excited to see what is on the other side of this season. Until I get to the over side I am going to press in and get out of this season all that I can.

I have learned that getting the answer we want to the prayers we are praying does not always turn out how we picture them. I am learning that it is ok to not be ok. I am allowed to struggle with moments in my season. Some days are easier to walk through. Other days, like today, are harder. Is it just not getting a place at an art show for my small business…no there are other things on my mind. But I am going to tell this disappointment where it can go. I am going to read and reread this verse until it sinks deep into my soul and strengthens me…But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers. Psalms 1:2-3 NIV

That’s what I need today friends, to focus my delight, my mind, my heart back on the Lord. He has a plan that I cannot even imagine and so I am going to wait right here with my coffee.  He never leaves us, never forsakes us and never stops loving us. Even on days we are stuck in our feelings. He loves us too much to leave us there.

We can do this together. We were created for relationship. Just remember big things my friends! Big things are coming! So until next we meet at the workbench…keep creating, enjoy your moments and keep your chin up. As always thank you for stopping by and for being on this journey with me.

Big Love,                                                                                                                                                       Randi

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345am is not the same when you are working third shift versus being awoken at the hour. Having worked third shift my heart hurts for those who work that shift then try to do life on a “normal” schedule. Kids activities when the sun is up. Planning times to gather with family and friends. Something always seems to be sacrificed. Friends, I pray you are able to find balance.

On the other hand being woken up by my mini cave-girl at 345am because she needs to snuggle, then having a full on tantrum occurring that results in both of us not going back to sleep, makes for a very long day. Tears have been shed. Were in fact shed before 7am.

I spent a year working 12am to 8am. Six months of that working 12:30pm to 8:30pm, then 12am to 8am. My clock is all messed up. For the last two months I have been working 8:30am to 4:30pm…over here just living the dream. Ha. Ha. Now I am finding it harder to keep my eyes open. Balance is hard in the transitions.

Mini cave-girl doesn’t want her own, super cool room after sharing a room with mommy and daddy for over a year. I on the other hand like that we each have our own space to make our own. She will appreciate it soon. I am struggling with being able to see my new studio space, tools and supplies just sitting there waiting for me. But unable to break away from all of the demands of life, work, child, husband, organizing and purging a new house…transitions, my friends, are hard! Finding balance is the goal. I’ll get there. So will you. We can get there together.

Just remember big things my friends! Big things are coming! So until next we meet at the workbench…keep creating, enjoy your moments and keep your chin up. As always thank you for stopping by and for being on this journey with me.

Big Love,

Randi

 

Beginnings of 2016

Hi there and Hello Friends! I hope I find you well enjoying a big cup of your favorite pick me up beverage. Friends, I have not been at the bench in quite some time. I have been starting a new out of the house job. My pack and I have been moving. My mini cave-girl started kindergarten. The hubs started a new job. The last six months or so have been full of lots of new things for us. We are so excited about where 2016 is taking us. I hope 2016 is starting out wonderfully for you and your pack.

MickyAnn finished off the year well. We had several opportunities to participate in events ranging from outdoor concerts to church bazaars. I am really excited at some of the opportunities that await us. With our pack’s move I will be getting my own studio space. I cannot wait until it is all setup and ready for me to get back to the bench. I have so many ideas and just have not had the space or time to focus on making them happen.

I have so many thoughts running around my head. I am trying to decide which direction to take the blog in. I have been spending a lot of time searching scripture, listening for the Father’s voice and seeking to be challenged in every way He sees the need for a challenge. I want to share the thoughts of my heart with you. I pray they bless you.

One such thought is why are we so hard on ourselves? We believe untruths about ourselves, we talk ourselves into places that only make the hurt worse…we have been created to be amazing beings. We have purposes and talents and tasks to do that only we can do. That is such an encouraging thought for us. I had my mind blown on this thought. If I believe I was created for a purpose and I have been given a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11)…Who am I not to seek out my tasks. I am prayerfully seeking out my task. I am so excited to see what happens as we journey forward.

First step is getting the studio all setup. Then get some of the pieces in my head out and made. All the while basking in time with my pack. We have more of that lately and it so wonderful!

So there it is my friends, my thoughts, my heart and maybe even a little rambling. Big things my friends! Big things are coming! So until next we meet at the workbench…keep creating, enjoy your moments and keep your chin up. As always thank you for stopping by and for being on this journey with me.

Big Love,

Randi

Feelings & Rays of Sunshine

Greetings!

I have been feeling lots of feelings lately. The last few weeks always bring back memories of loss, heartbreak and missing. Whenever you come to an anniversary of losing someone who holds a special place in your heart it, well at least for me, hurts all over again, fresh and new. I spend my winter months looking forward to and planning all these grand adventures…then summer arrives and I am hit with dates on the calendar that break my heart all over again. Now I want to say that the missing and brokenness occurs all year round. But there is something fresh about the specific dates on the calendar.

Why I am I sharing this on my blog that is mostly, always been about my arting? Well because it is fresh. Because everyone hurts and needs to be encouraged. Because my feelings effect my arting. I want to be honest with you. After all, we are journeying together. I have been walking in a lot of defeat. I do not sell as much jewelry or even has often as I would like. There are more aspects of my life, than I think I even admit to myself, that are not where I would like them to be. I am making a change today! Why today? Well, because it is the day that is happening. I will be looking for the blessings, the good, the moments that are worth dwelling on, instead of walking in defeat.

If you have been walking through a crisis, struggling with the way things are, I want to encourage to look today for a ray…one single ray of sunshine. Here is mine; though not ideal (I’m being honest remember), my family has a roof over our heads. There is quite a story behind needing to see it has a ray of sunshine…but is true. Though I was at work while they slept, my humans got to sleep in beds with a roof over their heads, for that I am thankful and blessed!

Big things my friends! Big things are coming! So until next we meet at the workbench…keep creating, enjoy your moments and keep your chin up. As always thank you for stopping by and for being on this journey with me.

Big Love,

Randi

PS: I have a sale going on over at my facebook page…CHECK IT OUT! Just a couple days left! https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.776775992441197.1073741855.443799925738807&type=3

Finding Blessings

Greetings Friends! I keep getting sidetracked from any type of consistent writing of the blog. For those of you who chose to join me on the journey I am deeply sorry.

By way of updating you…I am still working 72 hours a week. I have become so exhausted that I find myself letting things that are very important me slip. Writing this blog, continuing to self-educate with new skills and techniques and even as spending time at the bench. I have been soldering and making rings when I have some free time. They make me so very happy. Custom orders have seen a jump in the right direction. I find myself goofy girl smiling at that thought.

My favorite mini-cavegirl continues to amazing. She does not fully understand my crazy schedule and often asks me when I am coming and tells me multiple times daily that she misses. These questions both comfort me and break my heart. The hubs is still struggling to find full-time employment. Though he is working part-time which we are very thankful for.

You if think about us and would consider sending us some prayers, happy bubbles and good vibes we would greatly appreciate it!

I have posted some new earrings and some custom order rings…if you are looking for some items on your Christmas list. Let me know how I can help you check some names off.

Hope as Thanksgiving as come and gone and Christmas quickly approaches that you have found time to remind yourself of all the blessings that surround you. They are there…take a minute to find them. I find it relieves some of the tension and stress. So until next we meet at the workbench…keep creating, enjoy your moments and keep your chin up. As always thank you for stopping by and for being on this journey with me.

Big Love,
Randi

Being MIA

Greetings from my Workbench! Boy, friends have I been MIA! I hope your journeys have been treating you well and leaving you excited. I am currently exhausted. I have been working multiple jobs-outside-the-home. I was almost a year unemployed, and then two weeks I had two jobs. During the last week of my two week notice I worked three jobs. Yes, you read that correctly…3!
During the last week of August our life situation was looking up. The hubs had taken a new full-time job with better insurance. I was working part-time, which was helping take some of the pressure off of him. We found a house with cheaper rent. All of which making it easier to not only think hopeful thoughts, but also feel hopeful. That was a long time coming. That was until August 29 my hubs got fired…for what seems like a personal vendetta. So here we are mid-September; no job for the hubs, no health insurance (probably has me to the most freaked), and me working 72 hours a week.
This is just the reality our word. I am tired. I do not get to see my favorite thangs nearly enough. However, my mini cave-girl started preschool the last week in August. She is doing amazing. They have a think about it chair in her classroom…she has not sit in it once during her first three weeks. I do not think it is possible to be more proud of an individual, than I am of that mini cave-girl.
My jobs allow for time to work on jewelry and business stuff. Which allows some relief from all the “work and commuting.” I have been working on new ideas. I am hoping for a steady pick-up in business. I have had several custom orders lately. It is a pleasure for me to be able to making people smile with a unique piece of jewelry. I have found that the VisArts center where I took my first metal-smithing class, is offering a intermediate level class. I am hoping to be able to take it with Ginny B. When I found out it was being offered I became so excited. Now I just have to figure out how to fit it into my crazy schedule.
I have been teaching myself some new chainmaille, as well as new friendship bracelet patterns. Making schedules and planning posts for my business pages, I have been decided to do a themed post for each day of the week. I am excited about new plans for my business. I am still dreaming of the day I can have an art center for children and adolescents. I have no idea how that will come to be…but I know that I will make it happen. Here’s to being more consistent. So until next we meet at the workbench…keep creating, enjoy your moments and keep your chin up. As always thank you for stopping by and for being on this journey with me.

Big Love,
Randi